Introduction

 Hello world! 

I would like to formally introduce myself and my blog to you all. As for me, you may refer to me as CBar (pronounced: see-bar). Not to represent the similarly-named knife brand, or even to give a hinting as to who I may be. Quite the contrary, I want it to be a complete mystery as to who I am. I am not afraid of myself being found out, or to even mask my identity out of shame. In order to delve deeper into this, I should explain the purpose of this blog...

I, at my core, am a dreamer. Not a daydreamer, but a "nightdreamer". More succinctly, and most likely disappointingly, I have dreams at night. The most wonderful dreams, some the most fearful, but ones that I cannot contain anymore. This is, metaphysically (meta: "at the base of"; physics: "reality"), a dream log and nothing more. Sure, I may make embellishments in order to enhance the rapid release of chemicals in a not-so-conscious state, or even to fill in gaps that my own mind may have left out. But fundamentally, I will express, in my best storytelling ability, the dreams I experience. So, what does this all have to do with my name then (or lack thereof)? Read on, I beckon you...

There is so much judgement in this world. So many prejudices, so much hate, so many presuppositions that people unknowingly possess. This is without regard to politics, no conformity to religion, and no ties to upbringings. It is the human condition, or part of it, to judge. As such, I wanted to remove one more line item that could cause someone to not enjoy my stories: my name. Because of this, it takes my "face", my person, out of the equation. There will be theories, there will be guesses, but all I want is for my stories and dreams to be read without anyone knowing there was someone who wrote it. You don't know my age, my gender, or my name entirely. What can surely be judged is my writing style, which I can concede is less than admirable. What I ask of you, what I hope, is that you all can look past my weaknesses as a writer and simply enjoy the material. I am not, and most likely will not, be a "great writer" (if there ever was such a thing). This is okay, I am me. My true hope and joy will be found in these writings will bring happiness to someone's life. Think of it like customer service: someone enters with a need that must be filled. My job is to fill it, to "scratch that itch" that many find nagging in the back of their brain. I hope to write words that express deeper meanings, ones that give utterance to groanings found buried in our hearts. I may never achieve this lofty goal, though try as I might. If nothing else, I just want someone to enjoy their time on my blog. I want it to be a safe space for all (if this were also ever such a thing). I will do my best to generate this environment through my stories, and what I ask of you is that you attempt the same with your fellow readers. I welcome and encourage critiques of my "work" (or, shall we say, "hobby"), but please, be kind to your acquaintances here. I love you all, I trust this blog finds you well, and I wish you the happiest of reading.

Best wishes,

CBar